Monday, April 26, 2010

I Need to Eat More Phish Food If I Don't Want To Be a Chunky Monkey

Yes - ice cream is still on my mind.

Tomorrow will be the last poker game I host at my apartment for a while. Honestly, I'm not that upset about it. The break will be nice, and it will allow me to concentrate on some of the things that are more important, like going to the racetrack and calling my bookie to place bets on sporting events.

That was a joke, of course. And I don't really have a bookie. And even if I did, I wouldn't publish the fact in a public forum that both my mother and girlfriend frequent.

No - it will give me an extra evening every week to work on my writing, to do stand-up or to go on auditions. I won't have to sleep in on Wednesday mornings, so I can get more done then, too. All in all a good thing. Except for the money I won't be winning.

Tonight the ol' Side Work gang is getting back together. Going forward, the group is likely going to be more of an artistic support group, at which each of us has a chance to find out what everyone else is up to, and lend our advice and encouragement. Certainly many of us will continue to work on projects together, however, and we are also probably going to open the group up to others. Friends of friends only though, please. Randoms need not apply.

I need to fix my bedtime. True, I don't have any specific time I need to be up in the mornings, but when I'm up until 2:00 and then up at 10:00 or 11:00, I don't go to the gym because then I feel like I'm spending the whole day not getting anything done. I'm much more likely to go work out when I can be up at a reasonable hour. Like 9:45.

Oh, and I've started getting some responses on my book and they're super-positive! It's really motivating me to get those query letters written and start submitting... should be getting them out there this week! WOOT!

Starting weight: 222.4 lbs.
Day 185 weight: 212.1 lbs.
Total loss: 10.3 lbs.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Dear Ice Cream, I Hate You

That's what I'm trying to tell myself, anyways.

We all have our greatest trap - ice cream is mine. I probably love Chicago deep dish pizza more, but you can't get that so much in the San Fernando Valley.

I think about ice cream at least a few times a day. Sad, but true. I fantasize about it when I pass a grocery store or Coldstone Creamery, I crave it when it's even the slightest bit warm outside, my heart beats faster when I hear the siren-like song of an ice cream truck. I'm stuck in a truly Pavolvian nightmare.

But I have to fight it. Because if I allow myself a little, I won't stop there. I am trying to stock my fridge with tolerable substitutes - fruit bars, popsicles, light sorbet. But even in these I overindulge. It's a constant battle, and so far it's been a losing one, but I haven't given up the fight.

Maybe I need to picture the head of someone I hate atop every ice cream cone. Maybe I need to hit myself in the face every time I take a bite, so that it gives it a negative association. I don't know what the answer is. Maybe there isn't one. Sometimes I feel as if ice cream is far too powerful for me to even attempt to combat. It is my Goliath. My delicious, creamy Goliath.

Starting weight: 222.4 lbs
Day 179 weight: 212.8 lbs
Total loss: 9.6 lbs

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Things Are Going to Start Happening to Me NOW!

Those of you who recognize that quote get extra points.

Been eating better, even if I haven't been working out much. God knows how much I weighed during that period where I was too afraid to look at the scale, but it could be worse. I'm about 30 pounds shy of where I wanted to be by now, but that's all right. Rome didn't get back in shape in a day.

I'm through the first revision of my book and have registered it with the U.S. Copyright Office. I have blasted a copy to many of my friends and family for their feedback, and have begun writing the synopsis and query letters so that I can start submitting soon. Fingers crossed!

I have also now prepared dramatic and comedic monologues (even though I may never be called upon in an audition to perform them), so I now feel ready to get back into auditioning again. I'm getting my headshot and resume up on Actor's Access tomorrow, and will start browsing audition notices on Backstage.

I've written some more stand-up material, and will try it out once I get back from Erin's cousin's wedding, where I will be this weekend. Oh, that reminds me - I need to buy a suit. A fat suit. Well - a suit for a fat man, anyway.

Starting weight: 222.4 lbs
Day 172 weight: 213.2 lbs
Total loss: 9.2 lbs